“18 Months”

Today, I am 18 months sober by the grace of God.

Here is what it looked like 18 months ago.  After a pretty terrible run with drugs and alcohol, I came to the realization, once again, that I have zero control.  I am in the truest sense of the word powerless.  I can remember being on lunch break at the job I had somehow not lost by then, and I picked up my phone and called my Dad, telling him I needed help.  I then proceeded to head back to work, where I talked with one of my best friends Billy.  If it weren’t for those two conversations I do not know if I would be here.  To this day I don’t know why I made the decision to reach out for help, but I am beyond grateful to God for facilitating that for me.  I was absolutely, 100% miserable once again, and had been up for 4 days at that point.  My Dad ended up flying into town to help get me back into treatment.  I will never forget that night.  I kept him up the whole night.  Still makes me cringe.  I remember having to order alcohol with my breakfast on the morning of the 7th, having to stop at a liquor store on the way to treatment to make it through the 5-hour car ride, and then having to stop again, half a mile from the treatment center to grab a few more shots.  Although I had many previous experiences with relapse before this, I felt like this was going to be the end for me if I didn’t get help.  Hopefully that paints a pretty clear picture of where I was at.

What it looks like today is very, very different.  I have a relationship with God, I have an amazing relationship with my family, a beautiful and selfless girlfriend, a new business, and a host of friends that I can rely on for anything.  I would not change one thing in my life.  Today, I no longer rely on externals to make me happy.  I am no longer under the delusion that money makes me happy.  I can bring God into my thought life, I am able to have lasting relationships, I am able to enjoy the small things in life, I am able to show up for people in times of need.  The list is endless.  I also have the ability today to help other struggling addicts and alcoholics.  True recovery is possible, and I am now an example of that.  It is my duty to share the solution with others, and that is what I intend on doing for the rest of my life.

God bless.

Frank S – Austin, TX

3 thoughts on ““18 Months”

  1. MaryEllen Morrow says:

    Hi Frankie
    First. .CONGRATULATIONS !
    You did it ! I hear in your story how difficult your journey has been.
    Second…As someone who has known you almost all your life, I had no idea what took you down your lost path.
    But I celebrate that you are Found.
    Third…You are the embodiment of the Prodigal son. And you are truly blessed with the most amazing parents.
    Congratulations to them also.

    I will continue to pray for you .

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  2. James says:

    As someone who’s currently struggling with addiction and staying true to the recovery process, what you wrote is inspirational. Keep up the great progress and God bless you and your loved ones.

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  3. Frank S says:

    Thanks James, appreciate that. For me the process took a few years, trying pretty much everything other than what was suggested. Apparently I have to learn the hard way in most circumstances. I started seeing progress once I finally took the suggestions that had been given to me and actually acted on them. Having faith in God and helping others is what has saved me from going back. If you ever need anything at all shoot me an email! – Frank

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