“Christmas in Recovery”

Reflecting on my Christmas this year I have so, so many things to be grateful for.  The place that God has put me is the most freeing and fulfilling experience a human could possibly ask for.  Two years ago (Christmas 2015) things were quite different for me.  In fact, I would say that hands down, 2015 was the worst year of my life, with December being the worst of it.  I spent Christmas 2015 1 hour away from the apartment I had just moved into a few weeks prior (after another failed attempt at sobriety), and 3 hours away from my family.  I was in severe withdrawal from heroin and was able to scrounge up $25 to get loaded.  I drove an hour up north and gave my money to a middleman only to get fake dope in return.  I could not possibly fathom the fact that I got robbed in my time of need and went ahead and tested the waters… Yep, that is not heroin and the bottom I had begrudgingly created for myself just sunk a few steps deeper.  Out of desperation and utter hopelessness, I called my mother for money as I was dope sick, an hour away from home, with not a single cent to my name and a gas tank so empty it might not make it out of the stark parking lot I was in.  After a very brief exchange consisting of me cussing her out for not giving me money, she blocked my number.  How awful and painful this must have been, on Christmas no less! This 5 days before I got sober…

Fast forward 2 years, I woke up this morning at my mother’s house for the first time in what we believe to be 8 years.  In 8 whole years, I have not spent Christmas with my mother.  Well, thanks to the 12 steps and the freedom that comes when you put the principles into action, I got to be there for my Mom today. The same lady that has always showed up for me, day in day out, I got to return the favor.  Things are just so much different for me.  I am now a leader in my family, I get to add to their lives and not take from them.  All of the petty material things that used to drive my literal existence have furnished but they do not define me.  Walking through these experiences with God is the greatest honor that has ever been bestowed upon me.   My Mom called me after I left today when I was heading out to see my girlfriend’s family and said that the changes that have taken place in my life are the best part of her life.  She told me that my amends to her is made and she hopes I can help others find the same freedom that God provided me.  If I can be of service in anyway, my cell phone number is 713-907- 4796. Thank you for reading this and I wish you a very Merry Christmas!

Billy R – Austin, TX

5 thoughts on ““Christmas in Recovery”

  1. Sierra says:

    Billy! I am so proud of you and the changes you have made to better your life. You and your mom hold a very special place in my heart. I am so pleased you are sober and well. Happy Holidays!

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  2. Michael says:

    Wow… Many, many blessings to you for sharing. Many have callings in life to give more of themselves in order to help others. Go and share the gift that God has bestowed upon you. So many have lost hope thinking there is no light at the end of that tunnel. But you are living proof. You are that light.. When they hear your testimony they will hear the voice of the spirit of God speaking through you reminding them that with Christ, all things are possible. Continue to follow God Billy, this is only the beginning as to what’s in store for your life…

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  3. Kelly Parmelly says:

    Oh my Billy!!! Big tears as I read this. I couldn’t be any prouder of anyone right now!!! You are and have been such an inspiration to so many in our lives. God surely works miracles and there is NO END to a mother’s love!!! I love you!! Kelly P. ✝️

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  4. Mimi Constantino says:

    I have never met you yet, we walk the same path one day at a time. Just having the ability to be present for our loved ones during this holiday season is such a blessing.
    Thank you for sharing and congratulations!
    Mimi C


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